my life, my words

what should i do? i tried my best to keep my cool and get along with them at my very best. i really hate to face such situations. just when things start to get back on track, shit just have to happen. now that ive once again become the culprit in their eyes, i really dont know how am i supposed to face them anymore. you told me that thrashing things out will help, but i beg to differ. theres no existence of reasoning with you. i only see authority. have i not given the respect you ought to receive, things wouldnt have lasted so far.

1:42:00 AM Y

Pic of the day!

i think we look cute here. hehe

this long holiday have been fun yet torturing for me. my boyfriend and friends are either working or studying, so i practically have to stay home every single day to wait for my boyfriend to knock off. the luxury only applies to days when he doesnt need to work OT somemore. kinda regret not continuing my work at hpb now, at least i can be kept occupied and there will also be income. too late to regret, now that its just a couple of weeks to sch commencement. i will just enjoy my last few moments of carefree days before i mug real hard for the upcoming 2 years.

these past few weeks were pretty much eventful though! last last weekend, i went to sengkang swimming complex with bf's siblings and cousins while he was working his ass off on a saturday. we only picked him up after our lunch at simpang bedok, haha. im not a sporty person but i kinda enjoy swimming cos thats the only sport that dont involves sweat. liang court, bedok sheng siong, bf's hse, hg tua, bf's hse. feels abit like 全岛追追追~ next day was spent at chinatown looking at rolex watches, ya rich family.

last week, had a 2 hrs badminton session w bf, his sibilings n cousins. for sat, our initial plan was to head down to KTM station for some phototakings. however, we went to the wrong entrance. so we gave up the idea and headed to henderson wave instead! the badminton session we had the day before alr caused massive muscleaches in us and here comes the hiking at the wave which worsen the pain in walking! crashed bf's sis's crib for steamboat and pictionary that night. the next day was spent celebrating his grandma's birthday.

that pretty much sums up our healthy lifestyles cum good food eating weekends. anticipating our short getaway trip next week! it better be fun and shiokkkkkkkk!

12:02:00 AM Y

Once again, i am treated as a puppet. in the first place, i wasnt informed when my name was used to make the claim. and today, i wasnt informed AGAIN when the claim was dropped. if you want to make use of me in a positive way, at least equip me with the details and everything. dont treat it as if its a norm for me when its just not. how can someone be so full of himself when you're making use of me for your own advantages?? you shuted our mouths up by saying its all common sense BUT what if my common sense is to uphold to my intergrity? im helping u and ended up seem like im being the petty character. for nothing i got myself in the shit.

its always bcos of you.

5:04:00 PM Y

If happiness turned into unhappiness, what will you do?

6:49:00 PM Y

days have been carefree as im officially out of job and all i have to do are to eat, sleep and watch drama. tutees are having their june holiday which means tuition came to a halt as well. tried a couple of part time jobs during this one year of "resting". considered resting as i would have been in my year 2 have i not wasted this one year. nevertheless, i got my bank slightly fatter!

firstly, i got into HPB to work on the national nutritional survey for 6 months. days seem draggy despite having the luxury to surf net, work tog with people of ur age group, taking long toilet breaks and eating as and when we want to.

next comes the nightmare, invigilation for SIM-UOL examinations. worked for 19 sessions and almost got my legs killed. i always thought my bangkok trip was worse until i worked for this job. witnessed how people wave their authorities around and getting unreasonable just bcos they are the head (note that i didnt use boss cos they are also being paid).

lastly, i worked as a drink seller during RSAF open house. a pretty nice experience working with a friendly boss. its difficult to find good colleagues, much more to find a good boss whom u enjoy working with. having to tend our own stalls, we came out with different strategies to tackle the overwhemling crowds during the weekends. alot of initiatives and teamwork inbetween.

attended my cousins wedding last sunday and went to msia the following day. bought 2 sandals which im very satisfied with my purchases! i went in without a single cent of ringgit or sgd and came out with scandals, ice cream and sweets! hehe. guess whos the santa claus?

so right now, im waiting for my school to start in aug. im entering MASSEY UNIVERSITY, a New Zealand university that sets up its local branch in Singapore Polytechnic.

myboyfriendisawesome.

11:46:00 PM Y

Dedication to my dearest boyfriend

我常在想应该再也找不到
任何人像你对我那么好
好到我的家人也被照料
我的朋友还为你撑腰
你还是有一堆毛病改不掉
拗起来气得仙女都跳脚
可是人生完美的事太少
我们不能什么都想要

*你是我最重要的决定
我愿意
每天在你身边苏醒
就连吵架也很过瘾
不会冷冰
因为真爱没有输赢
只有亲密

你是我最重要的决定
我愿意
打破对未知的恐惧
就算流泪也能放晴
将心比心

因为幸福没有捷径
只有经营

2:10:00 PM Y

11:16:00 PM Y

I don't get it why some people can be so insensitive. I can't always smile off your insults and act as if I'm soooo happy to be insulted. I dont care if you're brought up this way or that's just your character, this is a basic courtesy you should have in the first place. Just like how ive always respected you, I need some respect too. This thing is still here, making me so uneasy and unbearable each time it just gets worse.

12:18:00 AM Y

today was supposed to be the last day. we had appreciation catered lunch on sat and tues by manager and deputy director respectively, farewell tea party today but WHY ARE WE STILL STUCKED at that cold dungeon? Cant exactly say its a simple-data-keying-in-job cause we squeezed alot of brain juice while working on those questionnaire. Neither will i rate it negatively given the fact that we are free to talk, listen to music or even have snacks as and when we feel like. being eager to leave that place doesnt reflect the toughness of the job environment but simply on our exhaustion. i agree that it might be the most flexible part time job i've ever come across but sometimes options still become obligations. authority over democracy i guess?

on top of that, i still have to juggle between my part time job and my private tuition which really really drained me out for the past few months. so much so that i really dread reaching weekends as days when im supposed to rest or enjoy myself, im still working my ass off. i want to rest and enjoy the nua-ing days before studying like some nerd for my uni. hope my enthusiasm dont dries off.

i need to slim down before my 21st! i've gained 3kg in 3 months, how now brown cow??

my best friend and i concluded that silence might really be the best solution to all troubles.

9:53:00 PM Y

Finally got accepted into Massey University!

Have to thanks bf's jiejie & gorgor for teaching me the skills to tackle tough interview questions which came into good use this afternoon! im happy, so are they, as well as my parents.

Not forgetting my bf who accompanied me to every single interviews/ applications i had since we got together. Havent been easy for him to travel so far (be it by car or train), yet he did.

it must be hard on him to be so tolerant towards a gf with such princess attitude. he's such a gem. =)

9:34:00 PM Y

Thailand trip with my love 100311-140311

he might be irritating like how he looks like in this pic but he never fails to let go of my hand throughout this trip. no matter how sweaty, how hard to walk with hands held, he still did so. :)

even though i kicked him down the bed which made him damn pissed, he still make sure i was covered by the blanket. he hates to carry a bag out under the scorching sun but just to keep me hydrated, he did so. :)

truely enjoyed the 5 days with him and his family.

now that im recalling, i miss bkk sooooooo much! the tom yum, my oishi, the cheap cheap wholesale clothes and carefree lifestyle!

my favourite boy:)

managed to grab the $1 BK burger before we board the plane.

us looking damn shag after one whole day of continuous shopping!

again looking damn shag cos the shopping mall is too big to be conquered!

tuk-tuk is a must try at thailand, no?

4-sided buddha, a must go place as well

before we start our war at chatuchak

10:04:00 PM Y

work has been pretty stressful and supa supa eyes straining. imagine sitting in front of the computer for 9 hours and constantly having to divert ur concentration from the paper to the screen. hopefully my degree wont worsen at the end of this project so that i can go for lasik and get rid of those irritating contact lens and spects after 7 yrs!

a guy can be ugly, can be short, can be loud but MUST definitely fulfill the roles of a gentleman.

i need to constantly remind myself to treat others how u wish to be treated. sometimes, im just too tired to think or even open my mouth. in this working society, who will really accept you as who you are and not bear grudges? work hard, play smart.

10march please faster arrive so that i can take a break and hop onto our little getaway trip!

10:06:00 PM Y

Bon voyage, my girl!

10:27:00 PM Y

我有这么好的男朋友，我还在嫌弃什么？

8:24:00 AM Y

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